Me and My own Bubble

Me? Me as in me like outer body me? or the me that is underneath? the sings are there for all to see!, but it takes one to know one, many, well i say most people struggle to see the signs of ones last hope to cast upon another? say a silent plea for help, a plea that is undetected by the illness, and when i say undetected i mean "the illness is clever, like its intelligent! first it strips down your humanity "YOU! then it takes away your freedom, then last of all it takes away your energy so its left with a defenceless mind to run a mock inside, run havoc with ones fears until it crumbles you up into tiny pieces.

a safe haven? well a safe haven to me "quote, with my type of mental illnesses is a place that is for me and me only, a place lets say a room, a room with a window and covering the windows are blinds and covering the blinds is a good old pair of black out curtains, in that room that is all mine is a nice sized TV, with Internet access so i can watch films or listen to relaxing music etc, also a comfy bed with a heavy quilt and deep soft pillows "just for my neck tension", it mite sound odd to some but to one side of the room running along one of the walls will be a settee "sofa" so i can relax on and listen to amazon prime audio books "kindle  etc, in full view must be a fish tank of some sort with mesmerising fish to watch, but the most important thing is a door! a door that locks the world out!
Things pile up! and boy they do! imagine a person with his arms out, fingers clamped tight in an orderly fashion slightly cupped, the first bunch of news papers fall into the arms? yes this is quite manageable, second bunch of news papers fall into the unfazed arms, a mind starts to doubt if it can keep up this weight for much longer, so there it begins! as you can imagine what the rest of that comparison would end up?

The world? yes its a busy place, but i see it as its only busy to a certain scope or view, zoom out a bit? well just imagine that you can fly to space and your on the ground? your looking out of the window of the rocket and you see people cars trucks all rushing around? all systems go! as your going up, further up into the clouds you starts to see that rush disappear, it gets that small it seems like it was never there, now that you have gone way out into space you turn? you look back at the earth and see a ball, perfectly round in its shape, a blue that is a colour that would never be matched, and all that movement and rush has gone? like it was never there. the energy of the earth is to view on its surface and in its atmosphere, this is how i compare my illness, you may be standing in front of me but you would never know

Hence "Me and my Bubble